son, says

i

son       says the fetus of a son

you are nothing           but your mother’s son

because        countless prayers have poured into you

     

ii

son      says the forty-year-old mother

as the baby slid out from her womb      covered

in the blood        of her ancestors      both outside

and inside

iii

son       says       the buddha

son       says       the sky

his mother honors both       but her son

was made of       either

iv

son       says his four-month-old mother

wrapped      around her mother’s arms      inside

a bomb bunker                outside         the blood was shedding from dying peasants

she smelled it in the air         thinking how much it resembled her menstrual blood

before her baby’s carriage         while assuming her child             

was warm        inside   despite the sources of heat      were indistinguishable

v

no blood shed inside the bunker           the bunker    is a womb

  

vi

son       says the riot

son       says the war

son       says the grandma

son       says everyone’s buddha

says everyone’s sky

vii

you have made it here today

viii

son,     says the sun          in his mother’s

favorite folk song    tình cha ấm áp như vầng thái dương

            the father’s love is as warm as the sun

xix

son,      says the twenty-year-old son

even the sun shrinks our shadows down at its peak

x

thus          it’s no one’s sun    thus        there’s no one’s sky    

but the land            has always been ours

it’s called nationalism

xi

son      says the father     not “con trai”      but

the confucius’s manners of a man

xii

son,      says the father

there is a disease that is worse than

your great grandfather’s friend’s         agent orange

you don’t wanna be caught up in it

it’s called homosexuality

xiii

son      says the son

that disease        is in your blood ever since

whose blood is it?    

is it the peasants’? 

is it his mother’s?

is it his mother’s mother’s?

is it his mother’s mother’s mother’s?

is it his father’s? his father’s father’s?

is it his land’s?

whose blood is it?!    

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

xiv

son       says the mother’s strangle she      never committed

whenever the son went spoiled        she wished she had strangled

him            when he was still an infant

xv

did her mother want to strangle her when she went spoiled as an infant?

did her mother’s mother’s want to strangle her when she went spoiled as an infant?

did her mother’s mother’s mother’s want to strangle her when she went spoiled as an infant

would they have literally strangled their daughter if she was literally spoiled as an infant?

xvi

son       says the sky   

son       says the buddha

xvii

your mother’s prayers were only half-way through you

xviii

son         says the son

stunned by the smell of too many bloods      

please pardon the mother

mother    says the son        

please pardon the son

xix

son       says the sixty-year-old mother

while still praying for a shadow that looks like him

xx

son      says the son

you are nothing but your mother’s son        and never enough

(This poem originally appeared on SOFTBLOW Review, Issue May, 2021)

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